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Dec. 31st, 2009 | 02:49 pm
AHHH, I'm happy=)
Two days of hanging around camp made me happy.
2 Days of SP made me happy.
2 Days of awesome friends and silly bitching, made me happy.
2 Days of my favourite dish - Boys a la carte, ranging from 1984 to 1992.
I know right? An awesome 8 year selection. Rawr.
Let me record the little incidents that made me happy=)
Hanging out with Mitchell and Bry..Our bus ride together and meeting Deborah and the other 2 Hybrids (Fauziah? and Caster)
Bang Bus and all those other indecent jokes.
Getting carried down the sports steps by Dave...and then jumping and tripping and hurting myself.
Ridzuan helping me wash my cuts and gently rubbing away the dirt =D
Singing with Ely and Maddy and the others over dinner and all those other random singing moments.
Listening to and harmonising with Mitchell over that Aerosmith song.
Getting that lap-dance from Sab.
Meeting so many new people and then subsequently forgetting their names almost immediately after.
Those many hugs=)
Getting to know my comperes alot better (or at least those who turned up)
Meeting Sharry and Jonny after sooooo long and just hanging out with them and lounging around, squashed on the leather couch at moberly
Saying Merry Xmas and Happy Early new year to the nice receptionist at SAC who smiled alot and called me "Sweetie"
Meeting whathisname again and hes cheerful smile asking me random silly questions
Chasing after the sillies from Alpha and then giving up to go back to school with Bry and Mitch..
Meeting Maddys Monkey=D
Listening to them complain but knowing they like being there, deep inside xD
Seeing YQ again after sooo long. Yes i love YQ loads=)
Hanging around with Ely at Nings office watching part one of Gigolo Wannabe and realising why I love Shun SO MUCH in the first place.
Seeing Michelles bored face when I tell her something silly and her confused face when I shout "MICH!!" but I'm really calling Mitchell xD
Seeing him in his dark green AC tank top, which I think might be my favourite look on him.
Seeing Jas's sleepy face.
Making friends with Alwin and hitting of right away.
Alwin guessing that I'm a aDesigner just from the way I dress.
Sitting with Jonathan at that same squashy couch at Moberly and teasing him.
Entering my name into his phone with my signature (^-^)v
All the nonsense, really.
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AHH, just came back from New Years Lunch Party at the office. I got another cake=D A choco covered cheese cake. I think thats my 3rd cake HAHA or something. Had Black pepper chicken chop with some shephards pie and am tapao-ing a packet of carrotcake. My Maam overestimates my eating capacity. She bought me 2 lunches xD
Kay XM is in the office with me=D
I log off now.
CIAO~~
LOVELOVE
Alia
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if i kissed you where it hurts..
Dec. 23rd, 2009 | 11:46 pm
mood: 
discontent
I should be doing this on my blogger, but thats my happy place and you know, where everyone thinks I'm cool coz I listen to awesome music or veh cute coz i post stuff about cats and kawaii japaneeezy stuff or superficial when I drool over korean boys JUST BECAUSE, or really artistically awesome because of my mad use of fonts and words but really, sometimes I'm just ME. Just plain ol plain ol Alia Mustafa.
Not the Alia Fluffy Darling that everyone knows and loves.
I suppose this is where I can be more ME than my usual self. This is where I can pour my heart and only a very select few like-minded souls will read this because they happen to be my live-journal friends and suprisingly, everyone of my livejournal friends are the deep-ish sorts that will get what I'm saying but still accept me for me because they are sometimes like that too, instead of just liking me cause I'm a Designer by post, an emcee, a host, a singer, and an entertainer...or just because their friends like me.
Yes so I know Ive spoken about you on my blogspot, happily mentioning our to-be dinner date which I'm starting to feel very iffy about, and well, just mentioning you in general.
es I am very brave i think. Typing about him when I know he might read it, but I don't care. I like him, but if he dosen't like me, that is his prerogative. I'd like to remain in my little bubble, pretending all is okay, knowing that all is not really when it comes to the boy-front. I can't feel the tingly, stomach-churning feelings anymore. Does that mean i don't really LIKE like him?
I know I said I want to stop talking or just thinking about you, but it really isnt that easy. The more I wonder if I really do like you, the more I'm thinking about you. The more I tell myself I don't want to think about you, I do. But that's all I'm doing. I'm thinking about you. I really want something nice to happen. I really do like you. But somehow, I know...I just know that its just going to be between friends.
I told 2 of my ladies about it. When they realised you were 17, they called me old cow LOL. Theres a chinese saying.. "old cow chewing on young grass". HAHA I dont know if this is true between us. I don't see your age as an issue although I'm pretty sure lots of people would. But age is just a number. Martijn taught me this. I'm sorry I never let anything happen between the two of us, Mart. Youd have been ideal in your sensitivity and maturity. I need a guy like you, but I don't like you in <i>that</i> way. Sucks how lifes like that.
Silly boy. The grinch. I call you that. I give you names so that I can call you something special=)
I don't think you realise that.
I hope I get over you if you nothing happens between us soon-ish.
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Dec. 18th, 2009 | 10:34 pm
As you all should know by now, livejournal is where i pour my heart out about the fish ive met in the wide wide ocean of life.It gets very confusing though, seeing as how I only type about them but I leave them annonymous. I was reading through the past entries of last year and I realised that what I said about one guy, can usually be found in the next guy. Mostly its like I hop from one guy to another with a gaping wound already in my heart, so it just makes it worst as they go by. Its like, I'm trying all these drugs (the guys) I chance upon trying to mend what is already broken, but everything just dosent work. They give me this temporary sense of euphoria, but thats just what it is - temporary. After a while it dies off and all you have left is more pain and a banging hangover.
Morphine. Thats what those guys are to me.
The Morphine for my aching soul.
Wow. Deep.
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So, You.
I actually wrote a letter for you previously on a piece of paper with all sorts of stuff on it, but I lost the paper. I hope when someone finds it, they wont know its you and show it to you before I get a chance to tell you how I feel myself. But then again, I want you to find the paper. Oh wells.
So my whole purpose of writing this is to get those little weird feelings I have for you out of my head and away from my heart. What are those feelings anyways? I've told some people about them, and in my description, I called it "like"; a crush. But is it really a crush? Will it pass? 'm pretty sure it will, or at least I hope it would, like all those other boys i've liked before you. I wouldn't want it to last because what is there for me to look forward with you? You'll be a friend, just a friend, for as long as we don't fight if I don't tell you because I'm very sure if I told you, it would make things worst between us (not that there ever was anything between us in the first place).
I dont want to talk about you anymore.
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short shutdown
Jun. 21st, 2009 | 08:29 pm
am going to shut down this blog for a while and create another one on blogspot cause i wanna play around with photoshop and html for awhile as inspired by bro rid (wuzzaapp wuzzaaapp). Hope itll work.
if not, shall continue this one.
or maybe shall keep updates on how blog is going, lets see what happens=D
ciao!
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boyfriendless.
Jun. 5th, 2009 | 10:44 pm
mood: 
annoyed
Its a place where I rant alot.
Sheesh.
Keeping to that tradition, I'm going to talk to you about me being unhappy with not having a boyfriend.
Lynn has a boyfriend.
Dah has/had a boyfriend.
Even DIAN has a boyfriend.
Di has a boyfriend.
Hello?
Something majorly wrong with me somewehre.
I can trudge on fiine on my own but somehow, I want a boyfriend.
I want to prove something here.
I cant be that abig a disaster can I?
Sheesh.
I GYM forgawdsake!!!
I'm nice what.
Hmph.
Whateverlah.
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Graduation
May. 28th, 2009 | 03:00 pm
mood: 
cheerful
I want to fan my laurels (or LAUREL rather, in the singular).
I got the Excellence in Service Award for Campus Vibrancy.
Its a nice blue star-trophy and a certificate in this hard-cover booklet.
For once since the 3rd SP Star placing, ive got something to be truly proud about. =D
Oh, and Im the only non-committee member to get the award, which kind of makes it all the more sweeter=D.
Thats all ive got to say for now.
Shall write again soon.
ciao!
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emailing abah
May. 25th, 2009 | 07:30 pm
mood: 
chipper
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hi abah=D
how are you?
what are you doing?
im trying to make emailing you a habit here.
mama cries alot nowadays.
she cries at all the smallest things.
okay, maybe not. im just exaggerating for want of something better to say.
anyway, nana gash dosent email me anymore.
i think shes fed up cause i dont reply on time and all that.
she is an old british woman.
promptness! spit spot!!
its understandable.
do you think i can start going to work outside?
like, what job do you think i should do?
i want to try working for someone.
get some revenue then i can start doing my own business.
i want to do fashion for big girls.
of course i still want to get that diploma and degree in english.
english is the future.
can get jobs easily.
worst come to worst i can teach tution or something.
theres this course in tesol that gets you a dip or degree in teaching kindegarteners or something like that.
sounds interesting.
part of the module entails learning how to form games for kids.
interesting right?
haha
Oh, by the way, Matin says hi.
I'm sure everyone else will say hi if I told them Im emailing you, but i didnt, so heres hi from me on behalf of them anyways=D
the cats are healthy.
belle still pukes alot.
mama changed the mat in your toilet.
its alot cleaner now.
makes your toilet look bigger too.
i cant think of anything else to write.
mamas calling me for dinner.
im sure ill get more to say later on, then maybe i can email you tomorrow or something.
hope you are in good health.
take care and love you lots!
bye!
Olie
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Alia and her weight issues again.
May. 22nd, 2009 | 08:04 pm
mood: 
crappy
I eat less
I gain weight.
Frustrating?
Hell yeah.
Am slowly gaining and gaining and gaining.
I need those pills but I cant take them anymore.
How now?
I'm bloating up like theres no tomorrow.
This is serious.
What should I do now?
I dont know.
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why?
May. 8th, 2009 | 08:59 am
mood: 
contemplative
There are just so many things I want to ask why to. For example, why do cats meow? Why is the night sky so dark? Why is it that I am the way I am in the situation that I am and going through what I do? Why do people eat? Why do my slippers leave marks on my skin? Why why why.
So many whys.
I have no idea why.
*sigh*
